tuesday, September 21st

Well, I feel stupid! I forgot to save my blog post so now I have to rewrite it.  Oh well.
I had a rather stressful weekend, along with Monday, but today is much better. I feel back in the flow of things.
It's amazing how something can just tear the rug out from under your feet. That's how Saturday was. I started feeling panicky. I have never felt that way in my life! But I was sure feeling that way on that day. I started feeling something in my gut, you know that intuition sort of feeling, when you just know something is going to happen. Well, that was ok, but then it started to build and get stronger. To where, my heart was racing, and I had to breathe deeply to calm myself down. I was fine away from the house, but when we headed back it started up again. I almost passed out in the back of the truck.
Nothing happened though. It had calmed down to a whisper by evening. Sunday morning it was there, but still not bad. I just figured that I was wrong about it. But after breakfast, sure enough, what I felt did happen. I can't say as to what it was. But I can tell you that it was hurtful all the way around. Three of us ended up hurt, not physically, I was emotionally hurt, and so was one of the other two. It was painful to say the least.
Monday was still painful, enough that I did a lot of crying. There were a lot of tears! But needless to say I made it through, but it sure wasn't fun. It was a lesson I guess I had to learn to move on.

Anyway on to nutrition. I weighed myself this morning and I was down to 158. I was shocked again to say the least. Like I said previously the only thing I'm doing different is the green tea with lemon before each meal, and a lot more salads. I fee great!
I did learn today from the power point presentation along with Dr Henelee talking a lot of things, but what stood out the most was him talking about the fact that if your feet don't point straight forward that you have a tight anal sphincter. Which works in the case of my ex. And that it means you tend to hold on to things and not let them go. Man does that work for him. Anyways, I thought it very interesting.  And if your lips look like you have sucked on a lemon, that you don't take anything in, or in other words absorb it.
I love listening to him talk about nurtition! It is empowering and filled with truth. I can feel it deep inside me when he talks He is most definitely feeding my soul.
I know that I will love the energetics part of it. Anything having to do with energy, I'm there. I studied Shambhala Multidimensional Healing. I am at the second level. I had a long distance attunement from a Shambhala teacher in Washington State. Shambhala is somewhat like Reiki, but I enjoy it more. I use it when I massage someone. I also use it when someone is in need.
Anyway, thanks so much all of you for listening!